Saturday, December 12, 2009

Job Hunting

I've made a pretty fierce effort at job hunting recently, barring the few days when my father was in town, and so far it has been utterly fruitless. And I think that may be for the best. Don't get me wrong, I'm in no position to claim that what I've been doing in my free time has been more useful then getting a job, I'm simply thinking about how the next few weeks are going to play out. In ten days I'm going to be gone for a week. Immediately following that a friend from out of town is going to be in town for five days. I'd love to spend the next tend days employed but "I'm going to need twelve days off soon" is a difficult conversation to have with a potential employer.

So for the next ten days I'm going to change around my focus. I'm going to dedicate these ten days to getting my affairs in order, and to making sure I'm spending every bit of free time well. The actual process of that is very complex if analyzed on a minute level, but as is so often the case my behavior trickles down from larger principles. In this case it's a return to one I've so often tried to implement, namely the idea of living without dead time. My experiment for next week is to live for that entire week without dead time.

Let us see if this can be done

Friday, December 04, 2009

Musical Oddities.

I've been picking up a lot of odd bits of music from the Internet recently. As in very odd. Have you ever heard of the group "The Lonely Island?" Google it at your own risk. This song was stuck in my head for a few days, but at least it has a good message. After all, you can't trust the system. That's not what gets me though. The one that has been bugging me all day is a song that's pretty normal. It's "Poker Face" by lady Gaga. Except the version of it I have in my head, that wont stop, is the one being sung by Eric Cartman.

Thursday, December 03, 2009


I used to spend a lot more time on the Internet. The metaphors abounded, communing with my God, speaking with my people, etc. I used to refer to it as my native land, and as someone who has never identified heavily with a place that may still be true, but much has changed since those days.

Speaking from a purely behaviorist standpoint, that was the most important thing I did this year. My life actually started because I got off the damn machine. Until my life online, and most importantly in Azeroth stopped, my life in reality had a hard time starting.

And that in essence is why I write so little in my blog these days. I'm going to work on that though. Enough of my stories aren't private that I feel I can make some good use of this creative space, and I need to learn to be creative without it being past midnight.